I should have gotten out then. I wanted to get up and leave, but I thought if I buried myself in my work, that that would fight the feeling. She lay there silent for a while then she stared making moaning sounds like she was tired or too bored or something. She kept the sound going for a couple of seconds, which felt like minutes. Then she finally got up and was leaving the room. I still don’t understand how it happened, I just saw myself reaching out for her as she got to the door. I pulled her to me and started kissing her, surprisingly, she kissed me back passionately. She kissed me like she had been longing for it.
I heard from someone that when two people are genuinely attracted to each other, they are no longer in control of their actions. We made love passionately, but in a rough way. I could not believe I was doing this to my best friend’s girlfriend and it felt so good. I didn’t even feel any pint of guilt in me. As they say, sex is the most powerful emotion. It can lead us to do unbelievable things without thinking.
I didn’t even know when Mike got into the room. I just saw him standing their watching us. I stopped. I was not really shocked, or scared of what he might do. I just wore my clothes and left the room. Jane didn’t get up; she just lay there, staring at the ceiling. No one talked for minutes. I was thinking I would hear Mike hitting Jane, but she emerged from the room with her clothes in her hand, not bothering to put them on. Mike came out and got a bottle of coke from the refrigerator. He sat in front of the TV, and started flipping through channels. I left the house a couple of minutes later, and have not gone back ever since.
I went back to stay with my parents, and a couple of weeks later, I moved into the apartment I had earlier wanted to get. Jane called me shortly after the incidence, asking me not to feel bad. She said it was all her fault and that I was the one she wanted from the beginning. She said she had agreed to go out with Mike when he asked her, just so that she would not loose me. She said she knew that if she refused him, then he would hate her, and that would destroy the friendship we had.
Women are so dangerously unpredictable. You can never really know what they have inside of them. And if they want something, they are ready to go all out for it.
So that is my story. Mike and I have not spoken since then. Jane and Mike broke up, obviously. Jane calls me daily, wanting for us to hook up. I can’t think of that, because I still have not gotten over what I did. And the funny thing is that it was the first time it was happening, but Mike would never believe that. He would just believe I had been betraying him all the while he was at work.
Love, or is it lust, just tore apart the relationship I had with my two best friends in the world, and the tear cannot be patched; Ever.