His fingers wrapped around my hair as he kissed me like he was thirsty and I was the only water on land, my shirt had gone off, his too , he put me on the counter and went down on me..
I woke up, then put on the light in the dark room, Rebecca was peacefully asleep..my palms on my face I sighed realising I was dreaming about it again..and sweating. My phone buzzed with a message, I picked it up
“Can’t sleep, I’ve been thinking about you” it read, was he kidding
“LEAVE ME ALONE” I texted back
“Stop messing with my head” I said into the quiet room, then laid back and tried to pray, there was a long silence before he texted again
“I’m never gonna touch you again..the thing is..you want me to”
Why was I replying him again?
I sent him a glaring face”I don’t want you to”
“Ok…do please forgive me..I guess I lost it”
“Yeah…maybe he could help me with this”
I stared at the phone then put off the light and slept off. I realised I didn’t ask him about his mother, maybe because I just didn’t care anymore, he had succeeded in destroying all the defences I had taken years to build up and that wasn’t safe, I wasn’t going to let him get to me again.
â€‹â€‹â€‹â€‹â€‹â€‹I put him behind me, didn’t return his texts or calls, I decided all I felt for him was plain lust, that was why he was plaguing my dreams..and I had no intention of allowing the devil to destroy my life.
Erica was on break and decided to come visit me in school, after gisting Rebecca and I about NYSC camp, we decided to try our hands on baking
“Rebecca I love you but you do not know a thing about baking”she said
” yea..give me some credit, I’ve never baked a cake”
“Word?.. Well you stir anticlockwise”
“Well I’m good with other things”
“Yes clearly, your better than my sister in many things “Erica said glancing at me for a reaction, I didn’t reply
” I hear one nigga’s been chasing you around campus”she said
I looked at Rebecca surprised
“Not Rebecca, I have my sources” I pst “hear he’s really fine, is he rich..do you like him?”
I looked at Rebecca again
“What, you not gonna tell your sister anything, I could advice you”
I didn’t need her advice but I sighed
“Yea, but he drinks and smokes”
“Yippe..he’s the one, that’s him baby.. I like a guys that’s real”
I just gaped at her then looked at Rebecca who mouthed a “Sorry” at me
â€‹â€‹â€‹â€‹â€‹â€‹” your no help” of course she ll like someone who was just like her, I kept the napkin and walked away from them
Erica looked at us “what did I say?”
I didn’t want anybody to talk about it or bring him up. I had succeeded in putting him behind me and had started hanging out with Martins again, he was safe and would never make me do something bad like commit a sin against God, I was in control and I liked that.. Sean was…dangerous.
“Yes” I told Martin at fellowship “I ll date you” I said, I already pictured myself as his wife and was comfortable with it, he took me in his arms and hugged me
“I love you Emilia” he said.
I tried to always go home on Sundays even though I had a tight schedule because of my course of study so I was surprised when my father called me to come home that Wednesday…
“Dad..today is fellowship”
“Its important, you won’t spend more than an hour, just come home”
I became scared, what could be wrong,was everyone alright, My mother,I had seen her on Sunday, was there something he wanted to give me in person, did somebody die in our family… did Erica say something to him, that was the most likely but she wouldn’t do that would she?, I decided to just go and find out what was wrong. I sat in the study for five minutes staring at him while he meditated with his bible open in front of him, I stared at the clock, I had just one hour to spare but I couldn’t rush him.
I finally leaned forward “Daddy.. what is it?”I paused “are you okay,is something wrong?” hope he didn’t have any health issue
He sat up and looked at me”I had been on my annual fasting”he said
“Ok?” My father usually fasted for 40days on his own, it made him pray and get closer to God..when he became silent again, I knew something was wrong
He leaned backwards and peered at me
“I had a dream about you days ago”
What…I sat up shocked, I didn’t like my father’s dreams because I knew of their history, God was always telling him something and he usually knew something before any of us did. My heart was pounding as I began to sweat while he studied me calmly, I felt like sinking in my chair out of guilt
“What about Dad?” I finally managed to blurt out
“Is everything okay in school?”he asked
“What was the dream about, you are scaring me” I said
He sighed, closed his bible, pulled his glasses and rubbed his eyes..what was with the suspense, I was about peeing in my pants…
“You were in a strange place and crying bitterly” he began, my chest fell..in relieve, but he was still looking at me with accusing eyes so I decided not to relax yet
“You were really in agony” he said again wearing back his glasses
“Dad it was just a dream”
“Like you lost something vital..I dont take my dreams lightly especially concerning somebody I love..you know that” he continued
“Yes Daddy but..”
He leaned forward on the desk
“So would you tell me what is going on..what’s wrong?”he asked calmly, my thoughts were racing
“Nothing Dad..I’m fine”
“My dreams don’t lie”
“Maybe you were worried about me” I dismissed, I knew the dream was scary but I couldnt let my Dad see that..
“Why would I be worried about you..I know you are in Gods hands and I always pray for you.. ” he paused “Tell me the truth and don’t lie to me”.
Yeah..the problem was I was still a child to my Father..
“I’m not lying Dad..”
” Does it have anything to do with the dating issue you talked about? ”
Guilt flashed in my eyes but it was gone, I admit I feared it was that, what else, I had gone outside my Dad’s wish to date out of disobedience and he had seen it
“No..why would you think that..?”
My Dad took off his glasses and looked straight at me, god when would all this end, he was using his lawyer act on me and it wouldn’t be long before I spilled..
“Are you dating anyone?”he asked bluntly
“N..no Dad, no one”I denied
“I want to meet the young man”
“There’s no one Dad” I said again calmly not meeting his eyes, Martin would not survive him and we just started, why was it a big deal
“I’m not dating anybody.. Can I go?”I tapped my fingers on the desk
“If I find out you are lying to me..you know the consequences”
I nodded and stood up, he was overreacting , no big deal about a dream besides God would have shown me too..right. I needed to get out of there though, the room was becoming very intense…as i reached for the door handle he continued
“You weren’t alone..there was a young man watching you from afar off..a strange man”
I turned to look at him in shock.
*What do you think is the meaning of the dream, did her father see more than that? please I need your comments below, thanks.